I was working on my prompt for this week's 52 List (roadblocks to my happiness), and it made me pause and think about a question that we received during our live stream on Sunday. Someone asked if we ever get annoyed with...Read More
Enough time has passed since we lost Carter that I have stopped counting weeks. Once we passed 39 weeks, it didn't seem to matter much anymore. I just knew that time kept going. Today, November 27, I know that it has been 52 and a few weeks. I'm not sure how many, and...Read More
In some ways, the end of this project, the end of Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month, and Carter's first birthday feel like the end of a chapter. You know that Brandon and I will never forget Carter, but with each passing day, it gets easier to live with the pain, and I know that after his birthday, life will still continue to move forward...Read More
I wanted to use this prompt to reflect on this project. It was not as easy as I thought it would be. Mostly, there were a lot of days where I didn't want to be sad, days that I didn't want to wallow in my grief and dig deep to feel things I wasn't quite up to feeling that day. I wrote a lot of these posts on the same day, then scheduled them out accordingly. It probably took me...Read More
My previous tribe circle posts have been about the children we've had and the medical staff we love. As we come to the end of the Capture Your Grief project, I want to devote this last tribe circle post to our children that have yet to come to us...Read More
Today is my son’s first birthday. I don’t know how many times I am going to say that today, but I have a feeling it will be a lot.
It blows my mind how quickly this year has passed. I remember thinking that my pregnancy went quickly, but I had no idea that the year following would go even faster. The first three...Read More
I posted this last year, two weeks after Carter was born, six years to the day that Brandon and I had officially been together (that last part wasn't intentional). We wanted to share his story again, because it matters to us. He is our son. Today, on his first birthday, we are remembering the day we finally got to meet him, and the day we had to say goodbye...Read More