Capture Your Grief Day 30: Reflect

I wanted to use this prompt to reflect on this project. It was not as easy as I thought it would be. Mostly, there were a lot of days where I didn't want to be sad, days that I didn't want to wallow in my grief and dig deep to feel things I wasn't quite up to feeling that day. I wrote a lot of these posts on the same day, then scheduled them out accordingly. It probably took me three days to get them all written, but even then, it was still hard, and I don't feel like I really did the posts justice.

What I've learned from this is that it's hard to direct and limit your grief. With a lot of my posts, I write them when I need to, pound on the keyboard for a bit, and then an emotional weight lifts. With the Capture Your Grief posts though, I kept telling myself that I had to get them done, and they ended up making my day heavier instead of lighter.

Don't get me wrong, I'm glad that I did it. It was a lot of writing, and it helped me to look at different aspects of my grief that I don't always see. But that being said, I probably won't do it again. It's too much. And there is only so much that can be said about my grief before we start talking in circles.

Thanks for being here and reading all of them though. If anything, I hope it has inspired you to dig a little deeper into yourself, and feel some emotions that needed to be felt.