We’ve been a little quiet about this, but we donated the third CuddleCot last week! This one went to Timpanogos Hospital in Orem, Utah. When we were there, they said they have been in desperate need of one. They have about two to three losses each month, and about five full-term losses each year. Too many. The staff was so sweet, and so appreciative, and were overjoyed to be receiving the CuddleCot.
It was really great to have Hudson there with us too. When we donated the first one, we were pregnant with him and no one knew. When we donated the second one, we were about fifteen or sixteen weeks pregnant, still afraid that we would lose him. This time he was here and safe, but I couldn’t help but hold him a little tighter and we recapped our losses. After everything we’ve been through, it’s still unbelievable that he’s actually here.
Donating the CuddleCots has not yet become routine. Each time we do it, I get really emotional thinking about families who have used one, could have used one, or the families that will use one in the future. It’s not fair. October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month, and I’m finding out about friends who’ve had miscarriages, friends that deserve to have millions of children because they are such great mothers. I never want to forget how it felt to lose each of our babies, because I do not want to lose the ability to cry for those moms. The emotions I’ve felt through each of our losses, and the emotions I feel as friends and strangers experience a loss, are what keep me motivated to put CuddleCots in more hospitals.
We are about $500 towards a fourth CuddleCot, and even though we know it might take a while to get there, we look forward to continuing to help other loss families. Because we know that as much as a CuddleCot will help, you will never have enough time with a child you don’t get to spend a lifetime with.