January 30, 2018
Hi little guy!
I want to ask how you are doing, but I wish you could just answer me! We had an appointment yesterday, so I know you’re doing very well! Your heart is so strong, and you are looking so good! I didn’t go to the bathroom before our appointment yesterday, because I was hoping we could do an ultrasound, so it wasn’t easy to find your heartbeat with the doppler. It wasn’t scary, because we could hear it a little bit, but it just gave us flashbacks of being in there with Carter and little bean. So my vote is that we don’t use the doppler anymore!!
You are starting to wiggle around so much in my belly! The other morning, I put my phone case on my tummy, and dad and I watched it move each time you’d kick. Your movements aren’t strong enough to feel from the outside, but it was still fun to watch the case move and tell dad that it was you! You’re wiggly at bedtime, just like Carter was.
We love that you are growing so much! Your ears are developed now, which makes it all the more fun when we call you by your name! I don’t think either of us have felt nervous using your name. It comes very naturally, and it feels good to be able to identify you. The other day I said to your dad that it’s crazy that we can identify our three children now. Carter, little bean, and Hudson. It seems like we’ve gotten three babies (four including our little five day baby) in so little time, which is true, but by the time you get here, we will have been trying for a baby for three years. So please get here safely, we don’t want to wait any longer!
There are only 20 weeks left until you get here! We have known about you for 13 weeks, and in just a week and a half, we will be halfway there! Our sweet doctor told us yesterday that the three weeks between our 37 and 40 week marks are blocked off on his family calendar so that everyone knows he can’t go out of town haha. February is just a couple days away, then June will be here so quickly!
We went through the nursery the other day just to kind of take inventory of what we have and what we need. It was really hard, I think because we just don’t look at all that stuff very often. I cried a little bit, but I also felt so much fullness and love. We have been so blessed to be parents to all four of our little babies, and we are really looking forward to being able to meet you. I just hope and pray that you are healthy and safe. We don’t want to lose you too.
I am doing my best to take care of you, and I hope I’m doing okay. I rest, eat, and manage my anxiety whenever I need to during the day, which is honestly the best part of not working. I just want to be the best mom so I can get your here safely. Keep telling me what you need, and I will do my best to give it to you.
We love you so much, little guy. Keep wiggling in there, and get strong quickly so your dad can feel them too! I’ll keep giving you all the fruit and ice cream you want, and we’ll take as many naps as you need. We’re looking forward to seeing you again at our 20 week scan, and are hoping that we’ll be able to breathe a little more once we get everything checked out. We love you little man. Stay safe!
Baby is the size of: a pomegranate!!
Total weight gain: Ten pounds! Woohoo!
Maternity clothes: I’ve officially given up on my other pants, since I was ten pounds less when I bought them. But maternity pants are too big still!
Sleep: Sleep is getting so much better. I still get sweaty from my stressful dreams, but I’m starting to be able to fall back asleep quickly after going to the bathroom 2 or 3 times a night.
Best moment this week: Seeing you yesterday, and having dad be able to see your movement via the phone case.
Movement: At least once a day now!
Food cravings: We ate a ton of mexican food last week, but nothing besides that. Mostly, food in general is kind of hard. Nothing sounds good!
Anything making you queasy or sick: Nope! I kept waiting for my morning sickness to get worse, but it never did, and now it’s over!
Have you started to show yet: Yes! And my stomach is hard now, not just squishy!
Happy or Moody most of the time: Getting happier, but still pretty moody. Your dad would be a better judge haha.
Looking forward to: Three weeks until our anatomy scan!!